conditioned

Conditioned. 

Sometimes i feel that i am living in like a fish tank instead of the ocean. The ocean is definitely more beautiful and well its where i would be originally from if i was a fish. It is truly living, nature, out in the wild. Then here i am in a fish tank. Everything is safe. i know i'll be fed, i know the water would be cleaned. I know i'll only be placed with fishes that will get along with me. 

Or like a lion in the zoo. Living in a compound, with no where to run. But safe. very safe. Fed, very well indeed. I'll get pampered and spoiled. I'll learn tricks to please people who would come to look at me. But i wouldn't know how to look after myself. To hunt, to live free. 

Sometimes i wonder if we were conditioned to believe that we are truly living like how we are now. To just eat , sleep, work, and go home. To go on tours, live in hotels, to have financial security, to have nice clothes, to have a beautiful comfortable house. To go to the best schools, to work towards being famous and successful. Is that all to life?

Is it wrong to want to live being dependent solely on the Lord. To guide me and to provide for me. Every day of my life. That i need not worry nor strive. That i could truly be free from the ridicules of men? That my parents and grandparents may be wrong? That i could live differently.

David was king and so was solomon. they had all the riches of the world and that is truly fine.

But there is something bugging me Lord. Like a spirit in me telling me Not ever to be afraid of Evil and Evil people because You are with me Loving me, Guiding me and always looking after me. That i do have enough faith, that NO evil may lay its hand upon me. I'll continue to seek God and continue to pray. I do know he would give me a life worth living. a life of adventure :) Both physical and spiritual. and real and truth.

Things i enjoy doing.

Now, i enjoy teaching my kids! Love teaching kids that are keen on learning who are not spoilt or prideful.

Baking, cooking and grilling. In other words creating delicious dishes to share :) and experimenting in the kitchen. It truly is an art.

Planting, gardening and growing. I love planting things, watching them grow and doing my best to keep them healthy and strong!

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Other likes,

i love drawing, art, creating, making, coloring, styling, designing.

i love researching and coming out with a concept and theme and a collection.

Skateboarding, surfing, anything that keep the adrenaline pumping. Extreme sports ;p

Outdoors, trekking, beach, anything with nature :)

I also really like organizing and managing things/ people to be more effective and efficient! I find it fun and productive.

I enjoy learning from God and wise people.

Spending time with God and learning his words and putting them into action :)

Having and spending time with wonderful family and friends who loves God too. and encourage me in my walk with the Lord.

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result :

-Family oriented lifestyle with close friends nearby. Cooking, Gardening, House parties.

-Involved with Kids. Teaching, Sunday school, Volunteering.

-Outdoor activities, Nature.

-A homegrown business, where i can manage things and where i'll be able to come out with a brilliant idea to spend my time, producing something for people either ( growing/cooking/breeding ) i would think having something to do with nature. While putting my design into good use to make all i create look good :) And make a business, that allows me to get an income and to continue to think of innovative ways to keep my business going not afraid of change! ( and a lovely husband who is really supportive  and motivating and full of faith ;p )

-Hopefully being able to get involved in helping the needing as best as i can, an orphanage? helping UN refugee kids? anything really where my heart calls , where God place in my heart.

God loves me.

Dreams of Believers and Non Believers

We are all human. We all need the same things to survive, to be happy, to live.

Why is it believers and non believers have the same sort of dreams. Riches, Popularity, Success of the World, praised by men. Wouldn't a believer when has come to know God be seeking other things. " Seek first the Kingdom of God and all things shall be added onto you". Shouldn't it not be in our heart to try to gain any of those as it is temporary, it is worldly, and it doesnt actually bring life.

Even King Solomon who was and is and forever will be the wisest man on earth. God asked Him " Ask! What shall i Give you"

Solomon "....give to your servant an understanding heart to judge Your people, that i may discern between good and evil. For who is able to judge this great people of Yours?"

What solomon asked God pleased God very much and God replied

" Because you have asked this thing, and have not asked long life for yourself, nor have asked riches for yourself, nor have asked the life of your enemies, but have asked for yourself understanding to discern justice, behold i have done according to your words; see, I have given you a wise and understanding heart, so that there has not been anyone like you before you , nor shall any like you arise after you. And I have also given you what you have not asked; both riches and honor, so that there shall not be anyone like you among the kings all your days. So if you walk my ways, to keep my commandments as your father david walked, then I will lengthen your days"

Solomon seeked God's kingdom first. What would pleased God, He placed God first By having great love For God's people and as being the King wanted the Lord to give Him the ability to rule his land in justice and truth. And when Solomon seeked Gods kingdom :) all else was Surely added onto Him :)

There are stuff i really dislike.

Such as,

having fixed something, and just because they are family, they are able to change things around. To ask for it their way, and me trying to be nice will let it ( even though, sometimes i think, i just shouldn't be nice when i am not because that is being fake ) Seriously, i don't like when i have things to do, and it being changed and made more difficult for me because someone else has something not important to do, and pleasure to attend to. I don't know GOD!! Sometimes, why i am so different from everyone. But i want to live by your word and pray to you more each day. Instead of listening to people and their thoughts. Sometimes they are family and i think that i should listen to them because they are right, or older people because they are supposingly wiser. But GOD, i want you to be the only one i trust in. Sometimes i am RUDE, But help me lord. amen Only you can change me.

How to live

in the bible God does let us know how he wants us to live :)

Philipians 2:3 Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your interests, but also to the interests of others.

it carries on to saying, Like Jesus Christ who made himself nothing, and who became obedient until death !

Philipians 2:14 Do everything without complaining or arguing , so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation.

1 Thesallonians , Be joyful always , pray without ceasing in everything give thanks. For this is the will of God for you in Christ JEsus.

With all the available sites

such as facebook. Where we can set up a profile for the world to see and be in touch with us. We are able to post things, images to project an image we want others to think we are. We are able to choose the image we desire, and project it for everyone to see. Most of the time, we talk about ourselves or our finding, Its pretty self centered.  Or what you call a fake relationship. I think the only real way, true way to know a person, is to live with them. To hang out with them, to work with them.

Hence, i don't want to spend so much time developing and maintaining my image based on how i look, what is say, or what i post. But focus more on my day to day life, with my relationships with people i am around. You know, to get in touch with the real world.

enjoy :)

i really enjoy getting my hands dirty.
i love working with things from the earth.
Planting, growing, looking after a mini ecosystem.
Cooking, baking, house potluck parties, home cooked food!
Experimenting, creating, being able to share my product, the sweet labor of work with others :)
No envy or anything like that, but just pure joy being able to produce something wonderful and share it with others.

i'll like to have :
. a vegetable garden
. flower / butterfly garden
. be able to make my own essential oils
. make bottled jam to share with others
. Be able to do any of the above and be able to put food on the table while laboring on them :)

i really really like it! nature, and all :)

going out last night.

And seeing how things are. I came to realized something about relationships.

They are like muscles, or health. If you want to be fit and strong, you need to be consistent in working to achieve it. Know your body, what you want to get out of it, 

you've got to see what to eat and drink ( consume )

your lifestyle and atmosphere you are in ( is it healthy, fresh, lively )

what you are inputting/ sow in order to reap. ( what are you planting/ working on everyday )

Its same for a relationship/ friendship. You'll need to know your self. What is good for you, how you are spending your time, with whom ( good or bad influences in your life ) they are all your choice. God gave us free will, and its our duty to be wise, and make the best choices and decisions each day. 

I also remember watching a sunday adelaja video. He said " Im going to challenge everyone who wants to try to be better than be, but first i have to know that i am the best, that i did all that i can, to know that i am smarter than them all " Which tells you, To be on top, you've got to know your field, your game, in order to excel!

Same for the friends i have, I will continue to stay true to myself, holding on to my ethics and values. Not letting myself be influenced by the world. Peer pressure, Not worth it. I'll say, you can always find something , someone good for you, you've got to search :) Always all the time. To not judge or condemn others but know love, to try to relate to them, but know your limits. Well, i don't want to go clubbing anymore i feel it is unhealthy , and its silly being influenced by people who aren't exactly smart in how they use their time. ( unless its a goodfriends party ) and its not something that is bad.

Lord , Thank you :)

Butterfly Fly Away

Caterpillar in the tree,
how you wonder who you'll be.
Can't go far but you can always dream,
Wish you may and wish you might,
don't you worry,
hold on tight.
I promise you there will come a day,
Butterfly, fly away... :)

Flap your wings now you can't stay,
Take those dreams and make them all come true.
We're been waiting for this day,
All along and know just what to do :)
Butterfly fly away...

Zoya Phan

I just read the Zoya Phan's Biography and it really spoke to me. About Life. The importance of Fighting for Liberty, Freedom and a Bright Future. Its truly worth the Fight. It involves hardwork, dedication, love, compassion, passion, determination. Bravery and Boldness. Strength and Courage.

God, There are so many people in need. I really do pray that these innocent lovely people, they would have a brighter future. That you'll take them out of this state of having evil upon them. I pray that God you would protect them all, and lead them out of Burma. I pray someday i'll be able to help more, Thank you that i have the opportunity to teach the kids, they have been a real blessing to my life and i pray that i will be able to give them much knowledge. Teach me lord to love and teach them well. To prepare them. As long as i am able to! I pray that they will come to know you too. Sometimes i feel that, it seems that as long as people believe in God that they are good people its good enough. Sometimes i wonder why they need you. I guess they need to know about grace and heaven. About your love. But it sucks when you see so many christian out there, who are no better than a non christian. Sometimes, me included. Sometimes i feel that it is more than following the law. I wish to be a better daugther, friend and student, worker and student . I really do... I pray that i'll learn to love, Yet stand up to what i should and be bold in fighting for freedom and what's right!.AMEN.

Fighting the good fight. My God loves me.

Because things that can't be seen. Can't be robbed.
Im not going to let the devil rob me of my future.
Waiting test and strenghten's my faith. My genuine faith.
During these periods of my life, the devil will do anything to try to steal, kill and destroy my dreams, my hopes my future, my joy, my health, my freedom. But in Christ. I am forever free. God's promises stand firm. His promise cannot be shaken. :)

The things that make you smile

YOU KNOW WHAT?

only if it was made with love, will you produce something beautiful :) Its no joke, its the only one neccesary ingredient. LOVE. that makes everything look nicer, taste better, look beautiful. LOVE.

sometimes even if i am not loved, i will love. Even if people treat me bad i can be so so happy because
i am loved by the most high :) Oh how He loves me :). God knows why i am the way i am. And He has given me a great future already ! I KNOW IT!  I will do really well in the future :) and work hard, own something beautiful. Thank you Jesus for you love !

44 more days and i can't wait :D

Its exciting times. You know what. i figured this out. That if i don't look around so much, i would be less sad, less angry. Because i have the ability to create, create with my imagination my dream a better brighter place, and live it it because isn't it anyway all about the state of mind. Im not talking about being loony. But as i am given this choice to choose. I choose to be an encouragement to people, to be lovely, nice and helpful. And i will be able to do it better if i do not focus on the temporary. But look forward always, Always trying, always progressing :). Im not going to focus on my sickness. Im going to focus on all the things i can do now. that this is only temporary. My God gave me this body He will heal it, He is all powerful and i thank Him for that :)

God Delights in me, everyday of my life.

He has favor upon me. He has given me the blessing of being able to go to Italy! :D. Honestly I am sure he has given it to me. So many things are asking me to doubt the fact that God is certain and stable and that I and my weakness affects His decision and goodness upon my life. But this i know, no matter what i do, God knows my heart, and that He is a good God that always always give us the BEST even in our weakness that we yet to know to conquer.

"But this circumstance is exactly the precondition that God will use to make His plans for you to be carried out. If you have everything you need to accomplish your task, you won’t need faith. And without faith, you will never achieve success. God creates obstacles to teach you to trust Him. Faith is something that will make it possible for you to fulfill your calling, your destiny. It is the guarantee of your future success. Praise the Lord for your lacking something important. It is the beginning of your faith in the things you cannot yet see with your physical eyes. The apostle James wrote, "Faith, if it hath not works, is dead, being alone. (James 2:17). So if you believe your plans will succeed, that God has planted a seed of greatness in you, don’t hesitate, but act on your faith.

The important thing is that you keep moving toward your goal and your faith will help you achieve this. We will see how this works in the next principle for success. 

Proclaim by faith things that you expect to have in your life. Speak about your goals and plans as if they already have been realized. Then promise God that you will do your best to attain your goal. Give thanks to God by faith, from the bottom of your heart, for planting a seed of greatness in you." - Pastor Sunday Adelaja, principle of continual success.

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God gave you life for a purpose. You have a particular purpose to fulfill, and you must understand what this purpose is and fulfil that particular purpose. So if God has created you, then there are specific tasks that He has purposed for you to accomplish, tasks which only you and nobody else can fulfill.

You may not know what this purpose is yet, but this doesn’t mean that it doesn’t exist.

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Ignorance is darkness. You know that the devil, who is the prince of darkness, wants people to be kept in ignorance, because that gives him the possibility of ruling over them. He will always rule over you in those areas of life where things are still not fully clear to you.

But as for those who have come to God, their lives have changed. The knowledge of the Word of God has made them free. The light of God’s truth has dispersed their darkness and joy has come into their lives. Depression and feelings of hopelessness have all been left behind in the past. By the stripes of Jesus they have been healed, and so they don’t allow the devil to oppress them anymore through sickness. They know that the joy of the Lord is their strength and their fortress. They are no longer afraid of people, because they know that it is the devil who is trying to lure them into a net of fear. God, however, has not given them a "a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind" (2 Timothy 1:7).

But how can a person find out what is his purpose and calling is in life? Don’t just look at the different possibilities you have and try to work things out for yourself. If you want to know what your purpose and calling is, then go to God and ask Him for what purpose He created you, ask Him what that calling is that He has ordained for your life. God brought you into the church and you came to your Creator, so you are already right there at the source of all knowledge. God is your Creator and He’s the only one who knows what your purpose and calling is in life.

But before God can reveal things to you and open up that calling to you, you will have to go through a time of waiting and preparation, during which the principle of being faithful in "what is least" starts to operate.

one thing i know is this.

I'll TRY to get out of this country and i'll NEVER GIVE UP.

i hate it here. i don't want to adapt to all the shit. i plan to get out of it. Unless i can change the surrounding, i plan to go somewhere nicer where i can also be of need but feel alive and happy. Not having to deal with people who are ignorant, rude, uneducated, hateful, violent and evil. I'd rather be not so rich too. Well at least rich enough for me to do what i love ! and to live!

Wishes and Dreams.:

1) Live in a great country.

2) To have a job that i'll enjoy and be able to support myself financially 

3) To be able to travel to all the places i want to go and do all the exciting adventurous trilling things!

4) To meet a wonderful interesting special crazy beautiful man and fall in love.

5) To motivate and help others who needs.

6) To be able to look after my parents, or give them enough to be happy doing what they want to.

Well now today, i feel that God hates me. My life is crap. and that i cannot be honest with myself but pretend to always enjoy the circumstance and shit no matter how shit it is. And if i don't God will forever let me stay in this. and that If i don't pass this test, and end up being happy, He won't give me what i want. He will always let me be unhappy and miserable. 

But i guess i have to break out of this mindset. That he will love be even though i hate life, the things im going thru and thinks some decisions i made i shit. and Even as i hate this place now. He still love me. And even if i am totally selfish and all that, He is still a giver of Life. I give up.

I really don't know how to live anymore. I really pray that Italy will be a dream. I really really really pray and HOPE JESUS. that you will give me a better brighter hope and future there. I really cant take it here. i really dont want to live here. ever...

honestly

Who controls me
What controls me.
Who influences me, ? Society? Family? Friends? Media? Pride? Ego? My Heart? God?
How am i suppose to live life to the maximum! to the Fullest! How to never regret!?
What makes me do what i do? Who makes me who i am?

God!!!!!! I DON"T WANT TO CONFORM TO THIS WORLD. i don't want to be caught in the rat race. I don't want to make you sad, i don't want to be dead while alive. I want to enjoy life and live it to the fullest! I dont want to regret, i don't want to fear. i don't want to be afraid.

I have to continue fighting! Fighting the good fight.

Somehow i want to be like Agnes in " despicable me ". You know. always so genuinely loving and joyful!. To find fun in everything :) To just LIVE LOVE AND LAUGH. To see that everyone can be good. To be encouraging! To be a life bringer :)

I want to be me. I want to love everyone i meet. I want to not judge anyone! :) GOD!!! I need you.
I don't want to make you religion. I don't want to make you a duty or a rule or a law. I want to always know that you are my Father, my Friend, my Saviour. gracious and loving! merciful and good.


TIME TO START LIVING AGAIN!. :D GOD I PRAY THAT ITALY WOULD BE A BLAST :) I pray that i'll have the bestest accomodation! Great friends there, great manager, that the lecturers will find favor upon me, friends too! That i'll find a great church family! Just guide me Lord! I'll have faith! :)
I want to live an adventure. i want to fall in love. i want to travel the world! I want to be able to help others! I want to continue pleasing you :)

Ciao! ;p

Ho Studiato l' italiano qualidianamente.È divertente ed emozionante di vedere il risultato di questo in 2 mesi di tempo quando devo metterlo in practice!
I have been studying italian daily. It is fun and exciting to see the result of this in two months time when i put it to practice!

So much to learn. So little time :) This is life, we have to make the best decision for each day!

Tanto da impapare. Così poco tempo :) Questa é la vita, dobbiamo prendere la decisione migliore per ogni giorno!

 as the saying goes, " tiny drops of water, makes the mighty ocean"
"piccole gocce d'acqua, rende il possente oceano."

happy :)

i don't want to envy. i want to be happy for people or have no opinion on people i may not really agree with somehow. 

I guess this is why i like staying away from the rat race. Why i like being different why i like different :).

There is no need to compare, no need to strive. I also prefer having friends who are different from me, unique, people who have their own personality, own ways, own style. Things become more interesting.

You know how people like showing of their happiness, made by things such as short mission trips, made by shopping trips, made by new clothes, the latest technology, things bought, things they have worked hard for. Temporary happiness. Somehow, i mean its cool you know, well its more of the ways of the world now. 

But for me, i like the idea of finding happiness everyday in the little things ! Being able to teach kids, practicing for dance, having a friend from sydney visit ! Just these little things that adds up to larger things! You know, how God truly blessed me with being able to live in florence italy, something i would never have even imagine myself doing. Im sure, somehow, as i commit each day of my life to God. He would love me back a thousand million times more. That my life would be a pleasant surprise! That each day i could be sure, my faith in God will overcome the world, that there is hope all the time. I have to keep breathing, keep living! Keep His joy. 

' tiny drops of water makes the mighty ocean ' !

an iceberg. only about 10% can be seen, is exposed . The other 90% is as important maybe more. i guess its easy to look at what can be seen and judge it. mm lol. it just made me think because so many people use the iceberg to create theories lol. 

mastering the language.

Honestly, i had never been the most hardworking or diligent or discipline or motivated person ever in studying. But i really want to be able to speak good italian before i go there. I don't want to make excuses in being so clueless over there also given that i have so much time. I have never been good in languages either, but im going to pray before i start studying, that God will help me. Help me with mastering this language.

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Somehow its not that i try to be distant or different. I just am. Funny how people still kinda like hanging out with me. Im glad they do :) I pray that God i'll shine your light wherever i go, without condemning or judging anyone. Thought somestuff i really dislike and want nothing to do with. I just want to help. 

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Well good italian here i come :)!

i realized something bout me

i like watching kids/ family movies compared to like other types of movies :). Also, you really get to know a person once you've like spend time with them. Like as in really hangout with them, live with them. To really know them :) So remember, don't get into anything to fast etc. 

What i find about life is that, you've got to move with it, or you'll just be left stuck behind. Whatever it is. Lord, ill keep committing my desires and dreams into your hands. Somehow i know that is when my life would be truly beautiful. As i allow your hands to work in my life. Im actually really happy you know, with how i have becomed, i know there will be tough decisions in life, tough choices to be made , but i know that you'll guide me, and whatever path i choose wisely ( to the best i can ) You will be with me Always. and you are a generous God. " commit your plans unto the lord/ delight yourself in the lord and He will give you the desires of your heart "

My God truly cares about me. You know God, i somehow know i need not worry. I do not need to conform to the pressures and trends of this world. You are above it all, I need to just seek and follow you. And you would even ' prepare for me a table in the presence of my enemies ' That you truly care. The God of moses, daniel, esther, david, joseph, noah. I want to be a women of integrity. .. i know i'll have battles ahead. Be my strength Lord. Protect me from the world. Thank you for everything :) amen

not a single day

not a single day,
can i discern my way,
But this i surely know.
Who gives the day,
Will show the way,
So i securely go. - John Oxenham

You know God. Each day i wouldn't know many things, but one thing is certain, you'll guide me, protect me :)

Somehow i feel that life is like a dream. So im going to live it full! Im not going to be afraid. I don't want to be afraid. I want to dare and those who dare, they do. Day by day by day.


" do not boast about tomorrow because you wouldn't know what tomorrow will bring " 
 " what is your life but a vapour " - its here then its gone.

Im really want to purpose in my heart to live for God each day, live joyfully, rest in his peace, pray constantly ( to prevent anyone/thing from stealing the God's word from my heart ), and to always give thanks.

Nothing to do, nowhere to be, a simple little kind free ;p

I want to be able to live in many different countries :)!!, In the city of art, Florence! By a quiet yet interesting beautiful beach, in a beautiful jungle with the local people, in india, the safari in africa, in rome, in myanmar!, maybe even japan :P I want to be everywhere, I don't ever want to get tired of moving, but to always keep going, to adopt a kid from myanmar. To help the poor, widows and orphans wherever im needed, to spread God's love true lovingkindness acts with joy and a big fat smile in my face:D . This truly is my dream.

I don't want to live for material goodness, or to keep getting bigger or richer. I want to have enough, enough for myself, my man, my kids to live and to be able to help others. I don't want to be ever afraid to move, of changes, of getting out of my comfort zone, LIFE IS TOO SHORT to try to seek PERFECTION. TO live life SAFE. to never RISK. to never TRY. life is about moving forward in many tiny steps of FAITH, never stopping even as storms hit. The victory God gives would be much sweeter than any sorrow i'll have to face here on earth :)

To always depend on Him. Let Him be my victory and strength. Keep serving God, keep loving people. I really enjoy helping people lord, especially little children! they really do bring me so much joy. It would be cool to be able to look after kids that doesn't have anyone to look after. Man, i really do not know where life will bring me. But i do know, i can trust my God who is ever always so good to me! 
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i'll also like to make friends and be in contact with a lost tribe :)

happy

somehow i am happy. Happy to be used by God. Happy that He somehow has so much faith in me. That he wants to trust me, knowing i can ALWAYS count on Him. Thank you Lord for everything :) My life would be death without you. Im so much stronger because you are my strength. In my weakness, my many weakness you use me. I know battles ahead i'll be facing but the victories are always much Sweeter :)!!!! Always sweeter :) I know my God loves me. I know i know. That life can be magical and beautiful as i've placed my life in the author of the world.

everyone.

In life, you'll realize everyone is so very different. Everyone would have different opinions at some point, values, dreams, goals, and God made everyone different and for different purpose to reveal His glory ( that is if they choose to serve Him ) And that we must always show love. You know, as much as God has given you wisdom, and you might think others are just going the wrong way, i guess you have got to have faith that God has got it all under control and that in His timing all will work as plan. He has the might and power. Yes He does use us. But not in a way in which we agitate, force or insult another person. But only in Love. and If we do it in Love and is still hated, we have to remember God knows, and that its them they hate instead. God has protected us. Ah anyway, i thank God for all His blessings. and i'll continue to grow in faith even as the storm  Hits.

" Step out even when a storm Hits, Step out even when your broken, Step out even as your heart is telling you to give up, Step out when your hope is stolen, Step out you can't see where you're going. You don't have to be afraid! So what are you waiting for? What do you have to lose? Your insecurities they try to hold to you. You know your made for more, so don't be afraid to move, Your faith is all it takes and you can walk on the waters too." - Britt Nicole, Walk on water

I want to be as bold as a lion.

You know for me, its really hard for me to like a guy anymore. Its like your preference change, they evolve, But when i find him God, i don't want to be afraid to jump in :). I want to have uttermost faith and be as bold as a lion because i know that if its mean't to happen you will allow it it happen :) Because you are a great provider, and don't want me wasting my time on flings etc now. God i trust you.

troubletimes :) God with us!

"strengthening the souls of the disciples, exhorting them to continue in the faith, and saying, “We must go through many tribulations enter the kingdom of God.” Acts 14:22

And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; ⁴ and perseverance, character; and character, hope. ⁵ Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us." Romans 5:3-5

¹² rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer; ¹³ distributing to the needs of the saints, given to hospitality. ¹⁴ Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. ¹⁵ Rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep. Romans 12:12-15

wow much to learn noelle. much to learn.

Beauty.

You know, God made all his creation beautiful. And i think its pretty exciting finding a style. A look, an outer identity. I want to be uniquely me, yes i'll have other outer influences but i don't want to follow trendy's just to fit in or be cool. I want to have a style i like. That only i can somehow think of :P

suddenly im really into pastel colors, vintage, soft, delicate yet strong. You know, well, i do pray that my wardrobe won't have to take up much money, because God i trust that you will style me to be awesomely me :) You know God, even in these little things, as silly as it sounds, i'll have faith, that you'll get me awesome clothes, and all that without me having to worry . As i do what is more important each day. Help me be more obedient lord. God made me specifically me. So he knows best on dressing me up and all that :) Im so grateful.  Faith is such a powerful thing. It fulfill needs.

Quotes by Mother Theresa

“I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world.”
 
“Intense love does not measure; it just gives”

“I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish He didn't trust me so much.”

“Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.”

“True holiness consists in doing God's will with a smile”

“I do not pray for success, I ask for faithfulness.”

“Spread love everywhere you go: First of all in your own house... let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God's kindness; kindness in your face, kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile, kindness"


“Words which do not give the light of Christ increase the darkness.”

“Do not wait for leaders; do it alone, person to person.”

“Love has a hem to her garment that reaches the very dust. It sweeps the streets and lanes, and because it can, it must.”

“See how nature - trees, flowers, grass - grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence...we need silence to be able to touch souls.”

“There must be a reason why some people can afford to live well. They must have worked for it. I only feel angry when I see waste. When I see people throwing away things that we could use.”

“We ourselves feel that what we are doing is just a drop in the ocean. But the ocean would be less because of that missing drop.

“I never look at the masses as my responsibility; I look at the individual. I can only love one person at a time - just one, one, one. So you begin. I began - I picked up one person. Maybe if I didn't pick up that one person, I wouldn't have picked up forty-two thousand....The same thing goes for you, the same thing in your family, the same thing in your church, your community. Just begin - one, one, one.”

“There is always the danger that we may just do the work for the sake of the work. This is where the respect and the love and the devotion come in - that we do it to God, to Christ, and that's why we try to do it as beautifully as possible.”

“The trouble is that rich people, well-to-do people, very often don't really know who the poor are; and that is why we can forgive them, for knowledge can only lead to love, and love to service. And so, if they are not touched by them, it's because th”

“Our life of poverty is as necessary as the work itself. Only in heaven will we see how much we owe to the poor for helping us to love God better because of them.”

“There should be less talk; a preaching point is not a meeting point. What do you do then? Take a broom and clean someone's house. That says enough.”

“Let us touch the dying, the poor, the lonely and the unwanted according to the graces we have received and let us not be ashamed or slow to do the humble work.”

“It is poverty to decide that a child must die so that you may live as you wish.”

“God doesn't require us to succeed; he only requires that you try”

The things/boys i've turn away.

Im sure life will continue to throw me with different routes, ways, promotions, schemes, attractions. Fortune, fame and the many riches of the world. Cute, rich, charming guys asking me out. Companies wanting me to be their next star. I don't know, i guess decisions can be made simple again. I guess if God's in that thing, He won't let it slip in your life. Whatever it is. So here goes.

Psalm 23

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
 ² He makes me lie down in green pastures,
       he leads me beside quiet waters,
 ³ he restores my soul.
       He guides me in paths of righteousness
       for his name's sake.
 ⁴ Even though I walk
       through the valley of the shadow of death, ^[a]
       I will fear no evil,
       for you are with me;
       your rod and your staff, ( your guidance and protection )
       they comfort me.
 ⁵ You prepare a table before me
       in the presence of my enemies.
       You anoint my head with oil;
       my cup overflows. 
 ⁶ Surely goodness and love will follow me
       all the days of my life,
       and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
       forever.

Dealing with mean people.

ITS NOT EASY neither is it a fun or nice thing to do. You get your feelings hurt, you get stomped on, and they kinda try so much to steal, kill and destroy you. I am honestly really bad at dealing with these sort of people. Honestly, i would rather not. I would rather be in the dessert than live under the same roof of an angry person.

Make no friendship with an angry man,
      And with a furious man do not go,
       ²⁵ Lest you learn his ways
      And set a snare for your soul. Proverbs 22: 24-25

An angry man stirs up strife,
      And a furious man abounds in transgression.
       ²³ A man’s pride will bring him low,
      But the humble in spirit will retain honor. Proverbs 29: 22-23


As a north wind brings rain,
       so a sly tongue brings angry looks.
 ²⁴ Better to live on a corner of the roof
       than share a house with a quarrelsome wife. Proverbs 25: 23-24

¹⁹ Better to be lowly in spirit and among the oppressed
       than to share plunder with the proud.
 ²⁰ Whoever gives heed to instruction prospers,
       and blessed is he who trusts in the LORD. Proverbs 16: 19-20

Do not make friends with an angry person, or follow him. Neither be proud, or you'll be sure to stumble.

God its not easy dealing with my brother, i don't know how He end up this way, but somehow i know it has to do with Him being spoil and not being punished or taught. Somehow was much as i do not what to think i know much, i do think i have the gifts of seeing thru people, ( and i do have to learn to not be judgemental ) Its not easy while dealing with people who are mean or evil towards you. God please always protect me. Help me not be swayed by their comments but to know that you love Me always. That you think i am fearfully and wonderfully made :) Thank You Jesus, AMEN!

i just hate English

OMG seriously. This is what i realized about me. I HATE teaching english. Its f***ing boring. Seriously.

And i also HATE following by the books. They are definitely created by lame and boring robotic type people. and i hate words. PERIOD. haha. There are other people in the world who enjoys language, English and Following by the book and they are the people who SHOULD have the privilege in getting the JOB. hehe. And all will be happy :)

Secondly, I don't like mean people messing my system because i am the type of people who likes to be nice, but is usually not nice to prideful people, or people who are very like insensitive and self conceit, you know people who think they are right all the time. That is for now by brother. He gets angry all the time, He is insensitive to the feeling of others, Disrespectful and a perfectionist who doesn't realize that love is more important than trying to convert people into a lifestyle in which he is right and all others is wrong. But, i'll have to deal with Him. And note this noelle, there will be other times you'll have to deal with people like this. and also remember to be wise in what your decisions are. You are not Supergirl and is not mean't to save the world or try to be right all the time or be a door mat either. Fight for whats right. :)

Im uber tired and these are the things in my mind now. To summarize it,

1) Do not do something you know is not your strong points even though people ask you too and it seems nice. It will end up pleasing no one ;p. Feel free to try, but stand firm to what you believe and be confident to be able to say NO.

2) Be still and know He is God. That all things will work out for those who loves Him. There will be annoying people in your life. Deal with it ;p 

Rewarding.

Honestly, this is a new found passion. Never though i would do something like teach :) But its such a privilege to be able to pass down knowledge, be the one teaching the future of things that hopefully would be useful to them.

This is one of the things that i just couldn't be bothered if i get paid, i just really enjoy doing it :) Seeing the kids enjoy learning, seeing their enthusiasm and their interest really makes me smile. I feel that i am already being rewarded in ways money can't buy. Such a pleasure to be able to give.

God thank you so much, i do pray you'll continually protect them and guide them and that they will have a hope and a future more wonderful than we can imagine. You are their provider, their lives will display your glory as they continue to trust in you :)

I've so much more to learn in life, i am in good hands :) I pray i'll be able to teach them well, God guide me as i do :) AMEN!

Time to relax.

There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan
       that can succeed against the LORD.

The horse is made ready for the day of battle,
       but victory rests with the LORD.

- Proverbs 21: 30-31

These are the two verses that is being spoken to me today. That there is no insight or plan of mine that can succeed against Gods and that, We must always prepare the best we can ! And know that God gives the reward, the victory, the blessing!. So many times, people are taught to seek for a dream, for their victory, for even what the world seek ( how then can it be pleasing to God , if its no difference to the world ) This is why, its pretty clear how whatever it is, in your heart. Know that God has His perfect timing for you. Never need to worry or be in Doubt. Yes you will go thru times, tough times where you are all confused, waiting for the next agenda. During that period. One thing, Keep trusting God. :)

and this is the victory that has overcome the world, - out faith.

The only thing on earth that keeps me is God's love. I have days of storms, You know those days where by you are SOOOO clogged up by the futile of your own mind. Own selfish dreams, own selfish desires, own selfish wants. Many ways and route's to take are given to protect yourself, ensure your safety, your comfort. Getting rich schemes, manipulation, corruption. Its so easy to think what you have, what God has given to you each day is not enough. Its also easy to take things for granted. 

Yes there are times the devil try's to shake my faith, makes me wants to disbelieve, sometimes in storms, sometimes in a loveliest of places. Anywhere. But our faith is the one thing that can protect us from the world. Its knowing that, whatever we go thru, God's with us. Its nothing compared to what He has prepared for us.

But without faith it is impossible to please Him.

I want everyday to be a mission trip for Jesus. You know, i really hate how they have fro fro up church to be the 'worldly coolness' how they have made mission trips become holidays, risk free, see the 3rd world, spend time with the kids, and go back home to your old life. I want to be a changed person. But i know that i want it to happen genuinely, that only God can truly change me. 

and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.

I still do not know how people can put themselves up so high. Take so much leadership, well maybe im just not mean't for it thats why i don't understand. Well im mainly talking about really huge churches. With hundred dollar seats. If i was a pastor, i guess i'll just be a missionary, or i'll just live my life like how God wants me to. Not building an organization for him where christians can hide. But i thank God that i am able to know that, in all of that, God is mightly working :) He is with whoever who calls Him with a humble heart.

Wherever He place me. I know He'll give me joy :) I don't know why He has called me to Italy. I know it would be a blast! a new experience! i won't take it for granted and i'll travel as much as i can:) I know there is a purpose. And i won't forget what i have learned here in Malaysia. How much i am blessed by my experience here. The people, everything. Knowing that, knowing again and again, its not about having personal goals or personal dreams. Its not about making it Big for Jesus, being perfect, being famous, rich and all that. Its all about having faith and trusting God that HE knows whats best all the time, He is the main provider in my life. 

He'll never leave me nor forsake me :) Thank you God for everything!. Blessings come both big and small, they all have something you can take from. All because its bigger doesn't mean its better. All because its smaller doesn't mean its insignificant. All because I receive something 'world defining-ly awesome' doesn't mean its evil. YOU SEE, GOD IS THE GREAT PROVIDER, He doesn't show Favouritism!!!! :D He knows the beauty in everything and He shows them to you!!!. They are everywhere. I feel loved God i do!. Im flawed and imperfect. imma gonna lean on ya.

 

 

i rather

People of the west are generally wrapped up in insecurity, keeping up with the latest trend, acting like they don't care when they actually really do, acting all cool, you know, living up to the image of the world. Im not saying it by just saying it, but by how i've seen them act in my life. There are the rare ones. like lachlan and michael who are very real. There are the ones out there who are nice to you because its their job, or they only do it to be liked, or to be cool. i dont know neither do i understand it. ( Yes no one is perfect ) But somehow its ever more prevalent in the west. And i guess some other asian culture. Why is it the rich always seem to be sadder, or that they become so proud, or you know they care so much about things not exactly important. mmm. truly blessed are the poor sometimes.

I admit i fell into the trap of actually nearly conforming into them. The way they are, but you know what. im really really glad i decided to be back in Malaysia. I feel so blessed about whatever He gives me. Tough yes, it was a process, but im glad im thru it :) It doesn't end here, many battles ahead. God will be my victory.

Honestly, i've never felt the meaning of life. Like its true essence. Its rawness, its realness, until im with and around those that i can truly help. It makes you wonder what you had been doing seeking after the world. All i know is that, wherever God place me, He will provide me, with more than enough, food, shelter, clothes. All my basic necessities. There is more to life than having more, than looking good, than gaining fame.

Riches, Perfection, Outer Beauty, Knowledge, Fame, Bigger things, Stability, Outer Comfort. These are the things the world seek, they won't really fulfill your needs, they are nice :) for sure ! Blessings if used wisely etc.! But you know what, seek God first, He will show you what makes His heart beat, what would make yours beat :)

:)

He opens up our eyes to things closes to His heart. Im not going to let fear stop me, im not going to stop because it might be a risk to me, Man im going to run, im going to trust God for all that He gives me each day. God is love, He will guide and protect each and everyone of us. He is for the humble, He loves the humble :) SO must we can do to help others yet sometimes, ' we have eyes that do not see ' Sheltered, self obsessed. Sometimes they blind us from the things that make up truely living. 

They're all precious in His sight :) I do pray all these wonderful children would come to know you personally and all that :) Please guide, protect, bless and provide the best for all these kids God, and also all the Myanmar kids, Ta Boih, Joshua, Michael, Ezra, Ridia, Jeffrey, RemRem, Ester Sui, MauMau, Christina, Suisui, Rosi and Elizabeth :) and the older kids too. AMEN! You are always  and forever faithful .

Pictures speak a thousand words.

Why is it the people who has the least that can have the biggest smile on their face. It makes me really wonder, it really shows me how, love is everywhere, it follows the humble. These kids are truly hidden treasures :) God bless them all!

because im never alone

Because im never alone even when no one is around me, even when im surrounded by strangers. 

Im never having to do anything alone, im not sustained by my own strength, its Christ that gives me strength. My weakness is His strength. I wonder why sometimes im better off somehow than others, the only reason is because my God is faithful. As i continue to trust Him and rely on Him each day. Days i find hard to believe , days i think He;s not there, He is. Always is, always will be. He is forever faithful. He is my bread.

" Some may boldly proclaim, If God is for me Who can be against me?."

Sometimes i wonder.

Sometimes i wonder where i'll find love or where i'd find me, or where we will meet . Its a wonder, because now i feel totally blank. Like i kinda know what i want like my preference but i guess i won't really know until i meet Him. Somehow i want , well i hope that i'll find him in a distant land, from a place different from mine, you know, i find it interesting. Meeting someone far across the oceans for from where im from yet having so much in common. Having a real connection. I guess i find that magical. 

Imagine He is there, thinking the same as what i am. its weird, but it won't be a coincidence. And somehow inside us we know we must wait for each other because the prize is worth the wait. Its a gift worth saving yourself for and you know God's staff will always guide and protect you :)

Rejoice always,  pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. Do not quench the Spirit. Do not despise prophecies. Test all things; hold fast what is good. Abstain from every form of evil. Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you completely; and may your whole spirit, soul, and body be preserved blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. He who calls you is faithful, who also will do it. - 1 Thessalonians 5:16 - 24

not going to try to be superman

This world is crazy.

Its a mess.

Its also full of lies.

I don't ever want to take up more than i can handle as much as i'd like to. I want to enjoy what i am given each day and do the best. Aim for quality instead of quantity. I'll like to maintain a healthy well balanced lifestyle yet i will allow changes and inconvenience into my life because life is not all about safety nor comfort. Its not about knowing everything, its not about being perfect. Its all about living, being real, trusting God, enveloped by His love each day.

Its easy to compare, to get jealous, to envy, to strive for what the world is dangling right in front of you, ( things that are wrapped in the cloak of happiness that is actually empty inside. Im not saying its not nice, im just saying its like a glaze, like plastic apples. I do fall into this trap. You know, but somehow i am glad that God shows me how to live.

On a side note, don't think too much. it means you're dwelling on my own mind and thoughts or like ya know, giving yourself too much pressure on something which you were not really like mean't to be doing, cause God is all knowing and i don't want to feel that i need to be more than what and how He and uniquely made me me :D .

Also, God wants me to know that He wants to be my giver of Life. Thats all i feel like saying.

Doing it for the kids.

                                                                                    from google search:)

all because other people are doing it and having fun doesn't mean i have to do it to have fun or be happy. Each to their own :) Each their own fun each their own happiness. I realized why we sometimes choose to do things and somehow its good to keep in mind the saying " doing it for the kids" , its helpful in somehow make us want to choose or make a specific decision for love, innocents and purity. For something that make us feel so much of awe, like a baby.

Sovereign Hands

Somehow i think God is really watching over me. Preparing me along the way for the future. Its like as though, He knows the good and bad stuff that is going to take place, but he has also given me, well he prepares me, he feeds me with knowledge or so on what to do before it happens. To help me get thru the obstacle successfully. A non Christian might not have this from God i don't know, but somehow i believe that God is letting me know of how to handle things sometimes i don't. Its not that i am suppose to keep trying to predict or pass judgements or assume anything. But i should always pray and know that God is watching over me, guiding me, teaching me, always Protecting me from all evil and harm. ALWAYS.

Just like today, when i met up lydia. and She had car issues and she told me story's about what happened to an uncle she knows. Somehow that story coincidentally helped me to evaluate the situation and act in a way in which i am able to protect myself.

Another one was when i went to petaling street and there were con-people on the street, and Zoe thank God was there to steer me away from evil people.

and also in relationships. remember noelle, as much as you see there there are excitements etc in getting into intimacy fast. Guard your heart. Do not stir love until it pleases. :) Listen to God. Always obey always, and have faith in Him. God, im not perfect, i don't know how to be, nor do i know how to really please you, somethings i think i'll find really hard. But i pray that i'll always believe in your love. Your goodness and mercy and grace.

I guess each day, God wants me to walk in faith, not to hid under the table, but to continually shine his light everywhere ! on the mountain top! its not about sheltering yourself all the time because that is what God will do each day, He will be your shelter, you can be brave and confident to walk out in the storm. Focus on God, not on the storm. He won't give you things you can't handle. ( somehow i think i'll rather be really weak in that case )... well God you know us all, you know how fallen we are. Thank you for loving me.

God each day, i'l rely on your daily bread to guide me thru the day. The holy spirit prompting me and leading me, Your might, power and love protecting and guiding me like How a parent looks after their child. and also to live Loving, Somehow. well most of all, to be the girl you made me. To be real!

path least travelled.

i want to always be taking the path least travelled. I reckon that its more of an adventure, its how i can truely live and be happy because this is how i am, uniquely me :). Somehow i think there is a tendency to copy if going thru the known path because a studied route by studying the history of others is always the easiest and most convinent way to move about. But i want to stear away from such mediocrity. God made us all different, each with a different unique and interesting story to tell. And such story i will, with His love and guidance, with my faith, bravery and courage.

You either stay on the boat with the rest of the people, out step out of the water clinging on to the father, and having a story you won't forget, an experience you'll never forget. a risk you would never have said you regretted not trying. Get out of the most now won't you ;)

I reckon i'll like to get permanent residency in italy :)

as a child of God.

As a child of God. I don't want to be afraid of evil because evil should be afraid of me as Christ lives in me. That when i pray, its like a confirmation that God hears me and will look after me, guide me, help me, and protect me, direct me always provide and love me. I can always be joyful! God loves me like how a parent loves their baby. I am truely loved. I need to have faith like a little kid. and run to my fathers arms everyday, holding tight His hands wherever i go in this earth He made for us all to dwell in. So many places to go, so many people to meet :) Life can be nothing more but interesting, exciting and full of adventure!

192 countries in the world.

and i have only been to 9!.

When i am in europe i plan to go all over! :D
1st trip would be italy, france, england, scotland, netherlands, germany, austria. (6 i have never been)
2nd trip would be to greece, spain.
3rd trip brazil
4rd trip africa
( then to north america, canada and new zealand. )

The journey has already begun. Life is exciting as you make it to me, as brave as you are to risk living life to the fullest, as much as you trust God and his might and power. Live it! each day!

Couch surfing

For my eurotrip. i plan to go couch surfing! I think it would make things more fun and exciting and interesting too :) It would be great to be able to find lovely people who would love to take me in and give me a place to lay my head each night. I pray to got that this will go really well :) 

You know how it might be terrifying for a person who lives in a jungle to drive a car ( learning about the no. of accidents that happen each year ) they may decide to never drive. I guess its the same with living. Usually people give excuses based on having no experience rather by listening to facts. But me somehow i want to live free from the ridicules of others. Of the insecurities and fears of others. Each day when i make decisions somehow Lord, i want to be able to trust you, even if it seems dangerous or silly or even stupid, life is more that about that, but about taking steps of faith, trusting you. always praying and having a hope for the best and knowing God always provides the best and loves me . I must not fear living.

My teeth is feeling ekks. i have to note down to visit the dentist before leaving to Italy.

Ah God, i pray that i'll be well prepared for my trip to italy, i will do really well in my studies God, i really want to do excellent :) and also that i will have the best most adventurous and wonderful time travelling and learning about people and the world and about You!. To be able to shine your light and make lovely friends all over the world.

Be yourself

You are the youest you you can be!
God i really want to couch surf! i think its rather exciting :) I commit this into your hands lord. That whoever i get to couch surf with, that they would be fun and friendly and i would have a good time with them. That they will be good people :) Thank you God. amen. Isn't life a huge adventure :D:D. Ahh, they things we can do! If only we tried, if only be decide, if only we move, and never stop ! :)

Life is too short to sit still! HAHA!

if fear hasn't kill me yet, then nothing will.

:) love john mayer's battle studies.

Ah, today i went to thread my eyebrows and a girl ruined it. but i made her pay for the most expensive eyebrow pencil at the pharmacy. Well she should have apologized an be really sorry but instead she laughed. So yeah serve her right. I thought i'll report her to her boss, but i sure do home she has learn from that. Lesson is: if you ever want to do something, remember what it is your doing, why your doing it, aim to achieve the best from it, and make sure you pay for your mistakes. Don't laugh it off if it affects others in a bad way. Repay them back with gratitude. 

Other than that, i think im pms-ing hence im feeling really tired and i've been kinda feisty :p.

 eurotrip.com is pretty cool so is easyjet.com and well the internet and everything Hahaha. Im happy to be placed right here, right now, for a purpose greater than I. A life to live from you in which im not going to want to live in fear. But in the confidence of your light.

Steve Caballero 

we "all" have many gifts, many are just too afraid and insecure to step out of their comfort zone to discover what those talents and skills may be. Fear is the one thing that keeps us from discovering our full potential in life. Philippians 4:13- helps me understand who i really am in this world and gives me all the encouragement i need.

Not gonna let anyone or anything ruin my days. Because they could, and its a choice i have to make of whether i should or always find out the best i can do, to do it and trust the Lord knows best for me. amen.

Thank the Lord :)

Thank you God, i feel really relieved :) its awesome to know you have great plans for me. and that you answer prayers. Italian visa went successful. Thanks to dad's good presence and nature too.

Prayer changes things. Faith fulfill needs ! <3

LEMONS

im a happy kid. waiting for life to throw me lemons tomorrow to make another glass of lemonade. yes please thank you.

Happiness, trauma's, disasters and joy. they all happen at different seasons in life. I've learn to make lemonade. like really learned to and is still learning... Just to remind myself to always lift my head up. I don't have to conform to the minds and image of others.

Im pretty Happy at the moment :) Life is good! And i really do thank God :) Im looking forward to much things, Lord i do pray that i will grow in faith even though its natural living in this world to grow the other way. I shall keep believing in the best thru prayer. God i do pray that tomorrow's application of my visa will go well and smooth. I commit it into your hands lord. The lady might be a little nasty, but you have favour on me and is always with me. I know that with you, nothing is impossible! :) I can be confident in anything i set forth to do, knowing you gave me the choice to make the most and best out of all you give me ( trusting me in that sense ) and also giving me the Gift to having faith in you who never fails. AMEN! true that! :)

Not your type.

You know how girls are supposed to be soft, princess liked, submissive? Im the total opposite. I used to be like a princess. When i was super young but now, i've kinda grew out of it. Im the adventurous type. The creative, crazy, traveller. I am uniquely me. You know what, i am really happy with what i have! and what i'll be going to do! I need not shout it to the world, i need not boast or be proud. Sometimes its just more peaceful that way.

I might want to be the first malaysian tiny traveller :P.

Travelling is a dream of mine. Everyday we travel, in different ways...

shopping spree :D

i just went on a mega shopping spree!. Paris, London and Amsterdam!;p for RM500!
i am so excited and can't wait!!! ITS gonna be ROCKIN!
( now i'll have to research and plan them more detailed :)

Days and Nights. Location. Accommodation. Things to do, Things To see, Things to eat.

There won' be a story if its like someone else's

We where all made different. To have a different story to someday tell. To live. Only stories that have not been heard of makes it big, wants to be heard.

 Visit this women travelling alone  for more info :).

Sometimes you've got to be the first to do things. Sometimes you've got to do what your heart calls you to. Always you can count on God ! I am totally blessed to be His child.