LEMONS

im a happy kid. waiting for life to throw me lemons tomorrow to make another glass of lemonade. yes please thank you.

Happiness, trauma's, disasters and joy. they all happen at different seasons in life. I've learn to make lemonade. like really learned to and is still learning... Just to remind myself to always lift my head up. I don't have to conform to the minds and image of others.

Im pretty Happy at the moment :) Life is good! And i really do thank God :) Im looking forward to much things, Lord i do pray that i will grow in faith even though its natural living in this world to grow the other way. I shall keep believing in the best thru prayer. God i do pray that tomorrow's application of my visa will go well and smooth. I commit it into your hands lord. The lady might be a little nasty, but you have favour on me and is always with me. I know that with you, nothing is impossible! :) I can be confident in anything i set forth to do, knowing you gave me the choice to make the most and best out of all you give me ( trusting me in that sense ) and also giving me the Gift to having faith in you who never fails. AMEN! true that! :)

Not your type.

You know how girls are supposed to be soft, princess liked, submissive? Im the total opposite. I used to be like a princess. When i was super young but now, i've kinda grew out of it. Im the adventurous type. The creative, crazy, traveller. I am uniquely me. You know what, i am really happy with what i have! and what i'll be going to do! I need not shout it to the world, i need not boast or be proud. Sometimes its just more peaceful that way.

I might want to be the first malaysian tiny traveller :P.

Travelling is a dream of mine. Everyday we travel, in different ways...

shopping spree :D

i just went on a mega shopping spree!. Paris, London and Amsterdam!;p for RM500!
i am so excited and can't wait!!! ITS gonna be ROCKIN!
( now i'll have to research and plan them more detailed :)

Days and Nights. Location. Accommodation. Things to do, Things To see, Things to eat.

There won' be a story if its like someone else's

We where all made different. To have a different story to someday tell. To live. Only stories that have not been heard of makes it big, wants to be heard.

 Visit this women travelling alone  for more info :).

Sometimes you've got to be the first to do things. Sometimes you've got to do what your heart calls you to. Always you can count on God ! I am totally blessed to be His child.

50mm f1.8 II

 photo's taken at Lishan's with my new lens

:). I've just bought my lens for rm300 bucks + filter 110 + controller 10 + free screen protector. I guess its a pretty good deal :s...

Met Lishan today at IKEA! She is back, super lovely girl. she is so nice, she helped me bring back a box of my stuff!. Im feeling so hot now, going to on the air- con soon.

Everynight i have been planning my eurotrip!, slowly but surely its gaining more momentum! Ah, so the plan is
12-15dec : Milan ( ask Deb )
15-19dec : Paris ( Franks/ Hostel )
19-22dec : UK London ( Cousins )
22-26dec: UK Aberdeen/Edinburgh ( Syazwan )
26-29dec: UK London ( Cousins )
29-3jan : Amsterdam (David's )
3- 7jan : Frankfurt
7-9jan  : Munich
9-12jan: Vienna
12jan: Back to Tuscany.
 :)

I'll book my flights soon. by this or next week. ones they are more stabilized  WOOHOOO

If you don't plan..

If you don't plan, you won't get anywhere. you'll end up, nowhere.

We'll never in this life be certain of anything, but we can always plan and do things in confidence by trusting that God is always with you. All the time. Helping you, loving you, providing and guiding.

Whenever you tell God, " i will do my best, to live life to the fullest to how i know and is able to, and i'll leave the rest to you" Have faith, God will definitely guide you and only GIVE YOU THE BEST :).

Everyday, He provides me food to eat, a comfy place to lay my head, family and friends and protection and guidance. Isn't He working in my life! Definitely SO :) Im not living an ordinary life. it gets as Ordinary as i Make it to be. God has given me the gift to Choose how to live my life. He wants me to be always joyful ! 

There is no adventure without danger. ( Its a fact. ) Its not a story without drama or the bad guy. But i've got to know this, the good guy always wins . God always wins. 

You can't live life toss by just whatever you are in now. You can't listen to whatever everyone says. You can't agree with everyones opinions. You can't live life like how everyone is living. All because that is how most people think doesn't mean its right, All because its the safest route doesn't mean its the best. If you know deep down in your heart that your God will never leave you nor forsake you Why do you fear, Why do you have so little faith. Why don't you just let go, Do what you have to to live life to the fullest!, and trust Him.

Plan, live life in the present, plan an adventure for the future. commit it into the Lords hands and go forth. The God of this Universe has me safe in His hands. He has already given me eternal life, He loves me :) I can trust that whatever i Ask him , He listens and will Give!. If i ask God for Protection to wherever i may go in this world and that i may live a ripe old age while always taking risk and being adventurous! I shall believe He hears me. and that He will Give ! And this is what i call FAITH. believing in the best of the Unseen :)

transition

I feel that i am now in transition. Well i'll still be studying in Italy, but its a new experience and adventure. For starters, i'll be living in a country where NO ONE SPEAKS ENGLISH! Hello sign language, Hello adapting, hello changes, hello to many things :)

Why i should travel as much as i could now. 

- i am free! not tied down to any job, any place, any person.

- im a student, and below 25 years old hence i get Student Discount while travelling :)!!!!

- i am excited, interested, young and energetic!

- because i am blessed to do so :) Whatever you have, use it , do not put it to waste! Travel the world, open up your eyes . soak up the culture, the atmosphere, the scene . everything!

HELLO HUMAN RACE.

The photo shop i went to totally cropped all my half-frame photo's while scanning. meh :(. anywhoo's
just enjoy them as one frame now. get over it and get on moving i'd say :)

Its so easy to get frustrated, mad, sad, angry, scared. But i remind myself that, it makes you stronger to turn anything sour into a lemonade. as the famous saying goes " When life throw's you lemons, make lemonade." Im learning this each day. To learn to turn everyday sour into something sweet, and thats called art :)

Sunday school

Today was my first day teaching in sunday school! Was awesome :). The night before i was too tired to think about what to prepare. At least now i have a feel about it all. Awesome kids, thanks to Crystal for asking if i would like to help :) She is a gem.

Some photographys.

These kids are beautiful.
I taught them about Moses when he was still a baby. I think that story is amazing. It shows how much God loves us, and even when the world is against us God's protection is over us all the time, during times we don't understand what is happening, God knows the big picture. He has us in a greatest position to serve Him, to live life to the fullest, full of purpose :)

TRUST HIM

Trust Him like how a kid trust their parents. Only expecting the best Love possible to receive. : )
 sometimes all you can do is pray. and that is all God wants you to do. 

Sometimes i feel really bad, or i fear, because i hear of tragedy of disasters. but then, i don't want to. i want to be brave and courageous! I want to trust that God will protect my spirit, my body, my heart, my mind and soul. 

²³May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. ²⁴The one who calls you is faithful and He will do it. 1 thessalonians 5:23-24 ( niv)

^23-24May God himself, the God who makes everything holy and whole, make you holy and whole, put you together—spirit, soul, and body—and keep you fit for the coming of our Master, Jesus Christ. The One who called you is completely dependable. If he said it, he'll do it!  ( The message )

I will believe the word of God with all my heart. Not what i see nor hear. I shall keep my hopes up high:)

And live without fear, live in faith. I am insecure about my own faults, sins and weakness. I am selfish, i am prideful, my heart at times is not pure. Sometimes my confidence is down low. But this i know, My God knows this. He knows all of me. He Knows i live to please Him. and sometimes i may fall, But He loves me. He is not evil. He is gracious and merciful.

God, i am going to do the best i can! Everyday i shall make full use of the day, enjoying the day itself and preparing for the future :). Tomorrow Lord, i have to teach refugee kids the bible. I pray that you will use me. Speak thru me God. i am flawed. but with you in me. They will learn something because its not me speaking. I commit this into your hands lord. In Jesus, God your mightly name. Amen.

So much to explore while in Florence!

Im going to plan out where i want to go, what i want to see, what i want to eat, where to shop, the markets, where to exercise, where to see their famous shows, leonardo da vincci's history in florence, michelangelo!, the history. SOAK up the culture and everything i can see, feel, touch and taste!

What a masterpiece city. God thank you sooo much for this opportunity. I was not even hoping because i was thinking of finding a job in sydney and settling down . BUT YOU KNOW much better!!!!!. You knew me more than i know myself. You make sure i don't miss out on anything great that you are about to offer. Honestly, i am so thankful and in total awe. Me noelle, imperfect and all, with this. i can only smile and feel so blessed.

God im going to enjoy it ! and make the most out of all of this!, even here in malaysia, its not by accident. Im going to make the most out of it.

82 days

till i leave to Florence, Italy! 

when i am there, i'll have to take lots of photographs and document my travel.

be friendly, meet lots of new friends and make sure i do not take this for granted! To Enjoy each day to the fullest and not let petty things disappoint me. To always try my best to get the best! and always ask as soon as i am able to! Do not hesitate, and always try to make the most and best out of all you are given :)

While i am here, in this 82 more days, 11 weeks,  2.5 months i'll :

one - make as much garments as i can! 2 garments a week :)

two - try not to miss any wing chun lessons!

three - hang out and catch up with all my friends in malaysia and also spend time with family!

four - travel to malacca, kuala selangor fireflies! and a fishing trip.

Lets make the most of what is given to us! Each and every single day. You'll never know until you risk rejection, risk failing, risk getting disappointed :) Do it, and keep getting back up when things let you down.
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About love.
I'll be open to finding love, wherever i maybe and whenever. But i'll always guard my heart.
Somehow, there is something in me now that really enjoys being single at the moment! Just free from you know it all!. I would like to get a boyfriend, whenever. But about marriage and all, maybe when i am like 28 or something :) For now, having great friends everywhere is awesome!!!. A guy who could be my best friend and soon potential husband. But man, i don't KNOW. things just happen like spontaneously yeah. But i quite know the type and kind of guy i like, and once i find him, i don't want to hesitate, there is no time to waste in everything, even love. :)

World cup fever.

Its world cup season at the moment. The Slovakia vs. Italy was mega Drama! Good match i must say. but i still think it should have been a draw. meh to the referees!. Now im watching the Japan vs. Denmark.. MANNn omgggg with the freekicks . Japan 2 Denmark 0 now!.

Today was Reunion day. Was Great :) met up with Ann Sia, Syazwan, Justin, Kenny, Brandon, Jwin Hon, Nicholas, Jie Xing, Jean and Satomi!.

Ahhh i love reunions !.

Fabio Quagliarella , man He did a good job for Italy. I hope he will be blessed! haha..

I want to go for the Brazil 2014 world cup ! thats one of my goal to work up too! !!!
Robbie will be at Curitiba! see how that goes.

Things i need to plan :(Round 1) 2010 - 2011

-Places to visit in Italy - Florence, Tuscany, Rome, Venice, Milan, Piza

-France - Paris

- Germany - Frankfriut- Berlin ( david )

- Scotland - Aberdeen ( Syazwan )

- UK - london ( nadia / brandon / eeleen ) 

- Sweden

- Spain

- Protugal

2012 - Australia and New Zealand !WORKKK

2013 -Canada. Usa.

(Round 2)

Canada- (Fiona , Aunty Annie and Uncle Zach)

USA- New york- California- Hawaii ( Solomon , Adrian, Pilar, Ai Ai )

Mexico

Brazil! - Curitiba ( Robbie , Anderson ) 2014 ( World Cup!!)

( Round 3 )
Africa
 South Africa - safari! ( Ryan )

( Round 4 )
India


Ahhh its good to plan. GOd i loveeeee to travel :) I am in the greatest Hands. I pray lord i'll be able to explore the Worldd!!!.. and live in many different countries and be joyful always and enjoy life!amen!

When you feel life is unfair...

Remember how blessed you are :)

its easy to start comparing, its easy to get jealous, its easy to lose hope.

But when you remember how blessed you are, you'll start thanking God, being happy for others, and hope suddenly reignites !

Thank God for life worth living.

while in malaysia

Okay this is what i plan to do while in malaysia:

one - sew sew sew. hence create something out of all the material i bought from jakarta!
two - go to malacca on a photography + food expedition.
three - see the fireflies at kuala selangor :)
four - go beach / fishing
five - spend as much time possible with family and friends.

To prepare me for italy:

one - map out the places i want to visit in italy ( create a throughout plan )
two - organize my time in italy,  studies, work ( find a job to save for travel) and play :) make some awesome friends
three - study the language ( the basics )

This is my happy shorts :). I reckon things are done better when not rushing into it but by testing out first, trails, research, study, and most importantly . doing.

Pretty darn cute hey :)

Anyway , i guess i shall continue my sewspedition. get my creative juicebrain on the movee.

Sometimes i feeel that man, why aren't i working now, getting money save it up for travel. But then again, i choose to trust God, to make the most of that i have got here and now. Knowing that i do not have to follow the trend, to do what others are doing, to be mediocre, to be able to live with Joy, Happiness, Full of Life, Adventure and to be Successful. I've got my own path, my own move, my own way :) Like no other, its a story, its special, one of a kind. I will survive!

Happy shorts.

today, i went to get my films developed, realized that the one in which i took them bokeh photo's might not have been taken because im not sure if i loaded the film properly :(... anywhoo's. when stuff like that happens,.. Keep at it. don't stop. get excited to do more!

And yeah, i decided to make happy shorts. hehe they will be done tomorrow and be posted up :) Making stuff teaches me to deal with imperfection because it leads to something great, namely art.

Met Uncle Prebon and Aunty Aily today :) i think they are cool because they are so unique. Uncle Prebon ask me alot of question such as " How are you going to spend your time in italy? " " What do you want to get out of the experience" Also Hinting i should do my research on it now. and start planning so i wont waste my time and what i can actually get done there :) Make a list, and stick to it ( with where i want to go, how im going to achieve it etc etc ) Its great to know they actually do it and it makes them feel satisfied !

Aunty Aily is now making soap! haha its pretty incredible. She is pretty emaculate and a perfectionist like mum so their creation tend to be pretty darn professional. It actually makes me feel proud of grandparents how blessed they have been that all their children have kinda made it in some way or nother :) must be their faith in You .

I do hope grandpa's high blood pressure decreases , i pray that we will find out how it can be countered and help improve His health.

Thess are some of the sample packaging of soaps Aunty Aily brought to grandma's today to try :)

experimental love

ah i love this. just took this not too long ago. started of with not being able to get it right, so i moved the hood a furthur distance and played with the focus :) and i love it. my new found love. Sometimes, the best things are products of mistakes, blunders, faults, imperfection.

this photo makes me smile :)

take a bit of love out of your heart, and give it away. away away. . 

Inspired

Sometimes it may just be from a story about a person and His life that brings hope to dreams. Because He lived what i wish to and its like the tiny cheers in life that you need while on the this journey, that lets you know it wasn't coincidental dad and mum told me the story of Raphael but it was denstiny that they even met :)

What is ever by chance? Unless got is the chance you are talking about. 

Ah spend today creating bokeh hood and slides. a total of 9 i made. A heart, circle, bunny, snowflake,  question mark, sparrow, fish with bubbles and star . Will post them up when they are developed, i pray to God that the development process would go fine :) fingers crossed.

I want to take photographs everyday. There is something each day that can put a smile to your face. There is always something to capture :)

heart bokeh  i took in the past that i adore :) an alley in newtown

Thank you for this day that you have made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it!

ps. world cup update: protugal vs korea 7-0 !!!! OMG. never say never aye :)
What a Game!

a dream

Sometimes i get scared to dream. And when you are scared to dream, you won't have the courage live the dream. But then you wonder, why is it then that God made you this way, having desires such as the ones you have. Desires you feel is placed deep in your heart. a longing, a passion, a joy to grasp.

Then you tell yourself. God won't make you as special as you are if you were not meant to enjoy what He has given you. Yes we will make mistakes, yes we will sometimes feel hopeless. But whenever i read the verse in the Bible telling me not to worry, about what i eat nor what i wear because these things God will provide, i gain confidence in this decision of mine. What he wants me to have is faith is His provision and to seek what God's heart is after each day.

" Rejoice always, Pray without ceasing, in everything give Thanks." This is how i'd like to live my life each and every single day as i wake up from a nights rest.

I went into fashion design because i love dressing up, style, art, clothes, fashion, designing. Beautiful things, the ability to create something to wear. There are many things i like to do, and i'll never stop exploring. The art of good coffee, the trill of skateboarding, photography and many many more.

I have decided, i do not want to live a life that is mediocre. I want to live each day to the fullest. And to do this i won't be able to please everyone nor gain the approval of many. Living in a world with people carrying the weight of the world on their shoulder each day you will without a doubt be bombarded with people with many opinions of their own that may dishearten you, be negative, a dream smasher. Sometimes because they have chosen to live by the view of the world and all its worries. Well i'll take a stand and choose not too. To always believe that God made me and will with all His might look after me and take care of me both spiritually and physically. He loves me.

I can't say that tough times wont come because that would be a lie. Storms would come, troubles, doubts, misery, fear. Each day they will be knocking on my door. but i will not let them enter. And even if they do, I'll always get back up. whenever life throws lemons at me, i want to make the most of every situation and circumstance. I am imperfect, flawed, i'll never stop being imperfect, i'll never stop making mistakes. But this i know, God will never leave me nor forsake me.

Religion stops a person from living and sin kills a living soul. I just want to live each day thanking God for all that He gives me. I don't want to get caught up in pleasing God with rules i make up for myself to be perfect even though i can never be and that is why God sent Jesus to die on the cross for me so i could LIVE! Neither am i going to indulge in sin when i know it makes God sad and that it harms me. I chose not to live in guilt  but in the freedom of Christ whom has ransom me.

So here goes, to my dreams that may change as i grow. But here they are now :

uno - to travel around the world, living in many different countries exploring, living and enjoying the different cultures around the world. To bring joy to whomever i am with.

due - career wise, i really do not know what i want to do God. i guess anything that allows me to travel and enjoy working. Making people smile and helping others.

trie - To always be in style, uniquely me. To have my own identity and look and kookiness regardless of what people may say or think.

quatro - To always take photography of daily events. To capture good shots and never be afraid or shy or self conscious to do so!

cinque - To not be afraid to take risk. try something new, skate, surf, dive, snorkel! everything :)

sei - To be able to support myself financially once i graduate. To find whatever job! just work any job you can find noelle to support yourself and to buy your parents gift of appreciation :) To trust God to give you the best when you go about looking, to make the best decision you can and go for it! To not be afraid to TRY and to work work work! May God be your strength.

seetee - To fall in love. To not be afraid to take the leap when you are so sure in your heart that He is the man you want to spend you life with. You will know noelle, He would be more than you could dream of.

outo - To always step over the line, to grow each day, to love each day, to live each day.

nove - To not compare yourself to others, to not judge others too. To know that you can only make the most of what you have hence no use complaining how life is unfair , being jealous and all that. To be happy with all that you have because  you really truly are privilege and loved :) Live is not about comfort or security. It is about living in faith each day, taking risk, trusting God, adapting to change. about learning to love.

deiche - to be humble. always open to correction. always open to learn. to thank people and to live without pride knowing everything you have is a gift from above in a funny way. haha because i don't really know how to explain.

Here is to my 10 wished. 

May they come true :)